Saturday, January 30, 2010
9:16 PM
whye is so many many things happening since ytd?
firstly is stuffs about me and him..
the awkwardness that started to happen..
secondly is something about marie..
but i had no idea wad exactly happen to her too..
thirdly is elaine stuffs..
she had some probs with her baby and her popo had admitted into hospital recently..
haiis.. wad exactly had happen..
things and things are going on..
my heart is aching like hell..
i seriously got no mood in doing anything..
just feel like crying out loud.. haiis..
i have totally no idea wad to do at all..
just simply can console elaine..
it just simply seems like, as a friend i'm quite useless..
cant even help her in anything..
sudden thoughts of i need him by my side..
but i noe that day will never come..
anyway the most i think i could do is just to pray for elaine's popo and hope that she will be fine! =)
*elaine, dun worry so much and try to smile as much as possible.. =)
1:53 PM
wad a nice saturday! =)
it seems like ytd was a long day for me......
and finally it is SATURDAY!
ytd wasnt a good day for me..
i totally sucks at marketing..
dun even understand a single thing at all..
wasnt even concentrated.. in the end, i didnt contribute in ppt.. =(
i'm so sorry to all my teammates.. =/
intended to attend marketing UT revision after lesson,
due to lazyness and some other reason, decided not to..
so as usual walked to mrt together with him..
after parted with him,
my mind seems to be brainwash by everything that is said on thursday..
i cant forget about wad shannie told him..
so in the end, brought up my courage and told him everything..
thought in the end, the result was wad i had expected, shed a little tears..
but at least we are still best of friends..
the friends that we use to be..
the friends that we always loves to quarrel about lame stuffs..
the friends that we had been as we use to be..
though everything seems to be nice like nth happen before..
sometimes i'm really afraid that the words had been said will affect our friendship..
but since it was already done............
i just leave it.. leave everything to fate..
whether to become awkward in the future, or to be the same as in the past...
i will just accept it..
anyway sorry that i made him being bothered by my words..
mayb i was really wrong in telling him those things..
but wadever it is, we will always be the best of friends.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
10:13 PM
i think i'm having quite lots of fun during ytd and today.. =)
though had partial for cognitive ytd and get a stupid bloody F from that fat-c,
at least i didnt wasted my day =)
after partialling with my entre-mates,
when to library and busy mugging with all the stuffs to be put up at the booth for today.. though slpy, but still enjoyed all the fun and laughters =)
although these had happened before during entre lesson,
it seems that ytd was the most happiest day =D
i seriously sense the close-ness of between me and them
i bet that we are the most noisiest grp of ppl in the library..
hahahahah..
as for today..
got the long table for our booth that huiyi longing for.. lol
and in the end, got nth back..
just simply rotted at my booth for hours busy watching videos and chatting with peeps..
but good experience..
though is bored ttm, better den doing pdt, ws and ppt..
which i hate the most =/
so, it concludes that everything is quite okays for me =)
BIG BIG SMILES =)
but i think the SMILES only can last for 1 or 2 days..
cux one more week to go and UT3 will be here..
after that, i think i'm can hardly see all my E37H-mates..
this class is seriously much better den my previous class..
much more bonding, much more laughters, much more jokes..
i will definitely miss them all.. =)
hope to see them in year 2 =)
* booth picture credited from shannie =)
9:51 PM
nth is going any better for me..
haiis..
i sense something, but unsure of it..
shannie told me to say it but...
is not the matter of whether to say it or not..
it is just that wad if he doesnt feel anything?
will that affect our relationship?
i really duno wad to do..
opening his conversation, but doesnt noe how to start..
=(
wad shuld i do?
left with 1 more wk to go..
i really have no time already..
any kind souls to give me a piece of advice?
anyway, we are going to be in separated classes for UT3..
which means, the whole wk of UT, i might not be able to see him at all.. =(
this is like torturing me..
though previously when we are having UT in the same class,
i seems to be very bothered by his presence..
but...
without him is worse than that..
wad shuld i do?
haiis..
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
9:55 PM
having cognitive module today which does not require to do anything again.. =)
all thanks to faci who always let us lead a happy and relax day =)
friends always asked me, whye does ur class always seems to be so free and easy?
den i answered, i have no idea at all..
it all dependent on the faci.. we just follow wad faci had told us..
since they want to make us and their life easier, whye not?
dun try to find anymore trouble to make ur day miserable..
anyway had a short chat with yijun just now..
kinda of bored and nth to do..
none of peepos blogs are updated,
no nice and interesting videos for me to see.. =(
so she asked me to talk to him..
initially have the thoughts of doing so,
but..........
the but always makes me hesistate.. =/
he did took the initiative to talk to me early in the morning today..
but wad he said is because, he doesnt want me to complain about him again!
wth..
wad is he trying to say here..
did he said these intentionally or?
seriously, i find that i duno him well at all..
i dun understand his thoughts and stuffs..
we live in the same environment, study in the same area, get contact with each other always..
but.... everything seems to be so nice and beautiful..
however, all these are just the appearance..
the inner parts doesnt seems to be so..
is just the outer cover that beautify everything..
as wad i said earlier, i really really had the intention of telling him..
but circumstances of many many stuffs doesnt and make me change my mind..
sometimes i have the thoughts of telling him..
sometimes i have the thoughts that, our relationship now is very nice and peaceful,
which makes me doesnt want to take a step further..
confusion and confusion..
mayb i shuld really give up..
3 more wks to go..
wad can i really do?
anyway in the end, we will still be in different class..
i met might another person.. he might too..
so does thats conclude that i shall forgets stuffs and stuffs?
haiis.. but.............
mayb, mayb one day i will say? i nv noe..
i give up.. just lets nature take its course..
12:05 AM
after reading my past post, now i realized that i had actually admire him (MR Yjt) before..
omg! almost forgot about this thing.. =/
but that's like numerous years ago..
i still rmb, during that time, that scenario..
he is so handsome, so nice to be admire, so adorable..
just because of the name, reminds me about the stuffs that happen during chalet.. =)
how i hope everything can turn back..
there is a time machine for me to go back in time.. =)
Monday, January 18, 2010
11:27 PM
i'm delighted today =)
though waited quite long, until 2nd meeting..
but he took the initiative to talk to me =)
which makes my day happy =)
i admit that i was quite pissed off with such reply from him ytd..
but everything was over..
the last msg that he replied makes my smiles back again..
his concern and lame stuffs forever makes me smile..
most happiest things of all is,
i'm gonna meet him for lunch tml with my other classmates too =)
shall see how it goes..
whether i will be able to eat well.. =/
BIG SMILES TO ME =)
Saturday, January 16, 2010
8:55 PM
sudden misses of my secondary school times with my lovely 5n1 and friends =)
the times when they spent the 5 years with me.. =)
since secondary one till five..
the three years that we spent together with ah tan..
the years, months, days that we made most of our 'chers' happy, angry and sad.. =)
the times that we cried together as a class..
the places that we been before..
the places that we spent our most memorable time there..
be it m'sia, sundy's house, school, class, sentosa, vivo..
those are our memories that cannot be replace by anyone else..
anyway thanks for ue guys to make my life so wonderful and fun..
really had enjoyed those days..
2:08 PM
totally exhausted today.. =/
anyway TGIS =)
initially thought that ytd will be a nice day for me cause its FRIDAY!
but..... all those are just simply my thoughts..
just thoughts that cannot have any further thinking..
was having marketing module ytd which i think completely sucks my day again..
not the marketing module that sucks me..
is just other circumstances that push me to the side of the hell..
btw, minting nuerr came to my sch ytd for the appealing of DAE..
but.... the person told her stuffs and stuffs..
haiis..
i'm simply sucks at consoling others..
see her crying makes my heart ache too..
just hope that she is fine today..
wadever is it, i will support her till the way.. =)
after sch, had a long walked and talked with shannie, sheryl and YC..
next, bused home with shannie and had a long chat with her about me and him..
she told me to try out stuffs and stuffs.. but......
i did try out today.. but nth nice came to me..
was is the initial thought for doing all these things?
and whye i'm the one who is always taking one step up?
i dislike doing all these stuffs..
dislike the feeling of waiting..
4 more wks to go.. i dun want these things to happen..
dun want anything that make me feel regret..
wad shuld i do next?
Thursday, January 14, 2010
2:44 PM
it already almost the end of week 12..
and nothing nice is on for me yet!
only big big sigh that makes my day bored to the max =(
which i seriously dun like it..
anyway i having maths lesson today
which is the last of grouping with him..
i duno whether i shuld feel sad or wad?
i just find that my feeling today is a mixture of emotions..
i dun even noe how to explain wad is the emotion that i have currently..
i just noe that i only have BIG BIG SIGH now!
i totally have no mood for ranting about my stuffs today..
=( =( =(
sometimes i feel that, what if we really become the past of me and mr quek?
i'm really worried that the past will repeat..
i still remember the feeling when i was with mr quek..
it really sucks..
i'm really afraid.. afraid that the feeling will be back..
afraid that those quarrels and stuffs will be back..
afraid that sooner or later i will dislike him, just like what happens to me and mr quek in the past..
=(
haiis.. i really duno how and what shuld i do?!
i dislike this kind of things happening to me..
i'm trying very hard to avoid thinking these stuffs..
but it seems that i cant even get over it..
i have lots and lots of stuffs wanting to blurt out..
wanting to tell him that how afraid i am..
wanting to tell him what's my feeling in my heart now..
but............... i just cant.. =(
Monday, January 11, 2010
11:05 PM
shall update the stuffs about saturday =)
saturday was serangoon sec, cca orientation..
initially, i wanted to meet peggy at sch's bus stop..
but my overslept ruined everything..
so in the end, met her in school..
at the stop where punggol primary is, i met esther but she ignored me till we reached sch..
lol.. is just that she didnt notice me at all.. =)
so after, she told me that she meeting ruijia..
so gave up in looking for peggy, just to wait for her..
waited aimlessly till 9 plus and she told me that she went back to slp.. OMG!
but anyway thanks that she cabbed down..
otherwise................
after meeting them, headed in to sch to see all lovelys juniors =)
i seriously miss them alot..
thought i just met them last mth.. lol
anyway that stupid ah pek; justin went to slp instead of going to sch and helpout..
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
after those helpout and recruiting stuffs, headed to hg mall for lunch..
but i was too full.. *BURP*
cux i went to serangoon to eat my favs KWAY TEOW SOUP!!
seriously, this is one of my super duper must eat food in serangoon..
without this, my meal doesnt makes perfect.. =)
lunched finish and accompanied juniors to IKEA for shopping..
as usuals, all the craps, jokes, laughters and fun were done there..
anyway thanks to kelsey for creating those super funny stuffs that burst out our laughters..
ohhs.. and not forgetting monika..
who seems to be like the auntie for the day.. opps.. =)
aftermath, home sweet home..
& of cux, nv forgets the texting of him to brighten up my days too....
9:42 AM
OMG OMG OMG!!
he came and talk to me without me talking to him..
damn happy ttm!! haha
first time ever.. =)
and i'm now happily chatting with him on msn.. haha
Sunday, January 10, 2010
10:40 PM
his craps and jokes doesnt makes me laugh at all..
but it just makes me feel irritated..
i have no idea whye is like that.. but..
it is just so..
the fact that i doesnt have to mood to craps with him after 30 mins talk..
haiis.. wad's going on tonight?
maybe, is just because i dun have the mood?
or i just feel tired today..
but all i can say is, i really miss him alot..
i wish to see him soon.. i wish that i will get all the concern frm him again..
I JUST MISS HIM SO!! =(
Friday, January 8, 2010
6:38 PM
I’m happy i’m happy i’m happy
He came and asked me, ue look bored today right?
den i say yahhs.. how ue noe..
and he said, cux ue nv talk much to me today..
den i was like.. OMG!!
He notice that my conversation with him was short today..
I’m happy ttm!! =)
And he also notice me when i was presenting..
He noes i couldn’t answer well..
He noes everything.. he noes.. hahahs
I’m seriously happy ttm!!
So next is wad? Wad is going to happen next?
I’m awaiting for it..
9:18 AM
didnt my prayers had said loud enough?
god didnt hear my prayers?
haiis.. initially my mood was really super gd when i noe he was in my team..
but........ my grp too overwhelming.. so faci had change him into a grp that he dun really like..
whye cant he join our grp? is just another additional person.. =/
haiis.. seriously sad ttm!!
moodless already..
suck a lonely day!!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
11:14 PM
today's update shall be a long one again.. =/
initially planned to meet jiaxin in the morning, but due her overslept..
so meeting cancelled.. =(
in the end, met shannie.. but she was also late.. ZZZ
which ended up reaching class at almost 9..
but i wasnt late.. grats that maths faci mark us as present.. such nice.. =)
anyway, grp didnt change today..
so.......... i'm in the same team with him =)
maybe god really heard my prayers, maybe it is fated..
or all these are just simply coincidence?!
wadeva is it, i enjoyed everything is done between me and him today..
nevertheless, he make me laugh out loud again..
jokes, craps and adding on everyday.. =)
how i hope there is no stop to it.. never ending..
i seriously feel jealous and full of anger when someone invaded into our conversation..
it is meant to be a special conversation that only both of us noe..
not meant for everyone to noe about it..
maybe i'm just so selfish..
i just simply hate when he smiles at other conversation..
but when he smiles at our own conversation, i just felt so delighted..
seriously happy ttm!! =D =D =D
at that point of time, i just felt that the world seems to be only having me and him..
where others are just like passer by A, B, C.. LOLS
i noe it sounds like something very naive.. but................
i hope and pray super hard that i will be in the same team as him tml.. PLS!! BLESS!!
previously, i had the intention of not going to sch, quitting sch, etc..
but now, with him as my motivation, i will definitely try my very best to attend lesson everyday.. =)
haiis.. today is a lonely night..
didnt chat much with him.. makes me super down...... =(
i finally understood whye yeeling is able to speak with CJT the whole night and not feeling any boredom..
cux this is wad i'm feeling now..
little happiness, little jealousy, little angry..
this is the taste of loves..
and i will definitely not give him my blog link again..
this shall be my secret place for my ranting about him..
lots of loves for him and for me now.. lovelys ttm!!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
6:58 PM
i had the temptation to update my blog today.. =)
anyway i met justin at the bus stop today.. and had a short short chat with him..
hahas..
and guess i saw who today..
its davis.. omg!!
my OGL for orientation..
it's like times since i last saw him..
kinda miss those orientation days with grp 13..
never forget thsoe happy days with those RP peepos.. =)
todays, having entrepreneurship which i think sucks ttm!!
total boringness.. and home is calling for me to partial..
but in the end, i didnt.. =/
i'm seriously bored ttm, that had the intention to go to YC's facebk to spam him like hell..
but in the end, i didnt again.. =/
anyway todays presentation was kinda gd?!
thanks to him who kept entertaining me in msn that makes my day again.. =)
gosh.. i wonder how would it be without him online...
how will my day be? boring to the extreme max?
ever since i came back frm holiday, i had been talking to him on msn..
seriously, if without his disturbance, i think my day will be moodless..
after sch, i pity him by walking to the mrt with him and huiyi & co.
so as usuals, craps and chats along the way till mrt station..
but in the end, due to ...... didnt manage to say bye to him.. =/
i wonder..
wonder whye everthing that relates to him have so many didnt..
weirdo..
mayb is just all random stuffs happening here and there that create these didnt.. LOLS
but he seriously seriously nv fails to made my day =D
though as compared to other chats, it might seems that those entertain by with is just normal..
but i swear that it is one of the days that made my boredom goes off and made my smiles back..
wonder whye everthing that relates to him have so many didnt..
weirdo..
mayb is just all random stuffs happening here and there that create these didnt.. LOLS
but he seriously seriously nv fails to made my day =D
though as compared to other chats, it might seems that those entertain by with is just normal..
but i swear that it is one of the days that made my boredom goes off and made my smiles back..
and i'm freaking tired now..
having my maths UT tml.. haven even started studying at all..
wad shuld i do?
dont even have the urged of doing those practice questions.. =(
i'm just exhausted..
hoping that with the help from evan yo songs will make me feel better..
btw dun be mislead by this long chunk of words.. is just that i really need a friend to keep me entertain..
last time was ruijia nuerr now.. but she had been busy since the last meet up..
so change entertainer.. =)
btw i really miss my nuerr.. miss those letter that she gave me..
those concern that she had gave me.. =/
**said that ue will study, pls really do so.. dun be distracted by stuffs.. =) JIAYOU!!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
11:29 PM
i thought that today will be a boring day.. but it does not seems to be so.. =D
anyway had kathy in our team today which feels so happy =)
have no idea whye i will have such feeling.. =/
anyway just like thomas said, her voice is really nice and i seriously admire it..
as usual, today topic just requires multiple of common sense thinking and thats all..
haiis.. just simply dun understand whye does we have to take this module..
who will use those thinking skills to apply it in the future..
seriously make no sense.. =/
wadeva it is, i still have 5 more wks to go and have to bear with it..
after sch, shannie suggested to cabbed to causeway point instead of walking..
so YC, shannie, nura and me cabbed there =)
numerous of craps and laughters in the cabbed and reached interchange..
den separated with YC and nura and bused home with shannie..
tiredness was nv ending, slept in the bus like a pig and home sweet home..
now, crapping with the YC non stop..
quarellings nv ending..
i also duno whye.. just weird.. =/
but enjoyed all the craps and laughters, cux it will forever make my day happy =)
ohhs yahhs.. i met justin in the lift ytd..
growing taller and more..............
hahas..
i'm going see my co peeps soon.. during sec one cca orientation..
hope that recruitment will be gd ttm.. =D
Friday, January 1, 2010
4:45 AM
firstly, shall say HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!! ITS 2010, NO LONGER THE 2009.. =D
next next, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JANE!! =D
hmm.. how shuld i say about today?
not bad? not really..
feeling that today is quite a sucky day again.. =/
aint happy during the last day of 2009..
but glad that i manage to meet up with daren, ruijia, esther and daren's frenx, jacky!! =D hahas..
seriously, thanks to jacky that brought up all those jokes that made our day..
and thanks to him for helping us to shoot daren until he had nth to say.. =D =D
anyway, we did wad was as planned..
went for prawning with them today..
and in the end, the guys team had win us by 2 prawns.. =(
but anyway prawn was tastier and bigger than the previous time one.. =D
after that, pool time.. =D
as usual jokes and laughter were never ending.. =D
thereafter, cabbed down to esplanade for fireworks..
but sis called up and said that car had brokedown.. ZZZ
so in the end, ended our 2009 at lavender street with the broken down car.. =(
wad a "LUCKY DAY"..
aftermath, cabbed down to club street for supper and home sweet home!!
this 2009 is really not good for me..
just really hope that 2010 will be a better year for me to look ahead for..
and i saw the horoscope that my love life will be good in 2010..
bless that i will find my LOVES ONE SOON!! =D