Thursday, January 14, 2010
2:44 PM
it already almost the end of week 12..
and nothing nice is on for me yet!
only big big sigh that makes my day bored to the max =(
which i seriously dun like it..
anyway i having maths lesson today
which is the last of grouping with him..
i duno whether i shuld feel sad or wad?
i just find that my feeling today is a mixture of emotions..
i dun even noe how to explain wad is the emotion that i have currently..
i just noe that i only have BIG BIG SIGH now!
i totally have no mood for ranting about my stuffs today..
=( =( =(
sometimes i feel that, what if we really become the past of me and mr quek?
i'm really worried that the past will repeat..
i still remember the feeling when i was with mr quek..
it really sucks..
i'm really afraid.. afraid that the feeling will be back..
afraid that those quarrels and stuffs will be back..
afraid that sooner or later i will dislike him, just like what happens to me and mr quek in the past..
=(
haiis.. i really duno how and what shuld i do?!
i dislike this kind of things happening to me..
i'm trying very hard to avoid thinking these stuffs..
but it seems that i cant even get over it..
i have lots and lots of stuffs wanting to blurt out..
wanting to tell him that how afraid i am..
wanting to tell him what's my feeling in my heart now..
but............... i just cant.. =(